It's nice to have enough free time to actually focus on your creative side.
I miss my personal inspiration though. Some people naturally inspire you to feel ways you normally wouldn't feel. I miss them.

I hate distance. I hate it. I've lost touch with so many people already. I'm sick of moving schools, I'm sick of moving countries. I'm sick of making friends and having to watch them leave for days, weeks, months or even years on end and wondering if I'm ever really going to reconnect with them. I'm sick of not having a sensation of a "home" group of friends that I've known and been around for longer than a year or two. It's hard for others to understand the emotional connect I form with people within months since I'm so used to meeting new people all the time that I just tend to get closer to them much faster. I guess that's understandable and something I need to work on.

I just wrote my CV. I already have a job this Summer, but hey, you should always be proactive I think.

I had a pretty intense discussion with Andy last night about people. I've always thought that people are born good and make mistakes down the road, but nobody really is a bad person. Just good people with bad decisions. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. Isn't that the motto of this year. Fact of the matter is though, there's just too much that time cannot erase. There was this one kid in elementary school who I didn't like. This was ten years ago. I found out about three weeks ago that he still holds a grudge against me and hates me. I don't even remember not liking him. It's crazy just how much you can shape a person's life without even realizing that you've done it. I just feel bad that I did it in a negative way...

I need food. I'm hungry. I'm broke though... Again. I wonder if I should spend more money on food or just starve myself to lose weight.

I'm gonna go with the second option.